*She held her summer day in her arms like a Beast prince, warm, enchanted, and real as any sadness, as she fell asleep 2001-05-20 12:20 p.m.*

kitten says "i missed you, why do you not come home at nights anymore?"

i'm so proud of jennifer connelly. james and i were talking about that yesterday when james came back and jennifer was still at the potluck. our little jennifer connelly is growing up and having fun. yay!

i spent a little bit of time with michael in jennifer connelly's room after i wrote my last entry. we talked about a few things, but i wasn't completely there, and she was doing computery things. and then i realized that john would probably be back and it was a weird time to go ask for that book i needed to borrow, but i didn't know when i'd be able to get it any other time, so i went down the hall, and knocked on the door. i'd called and stopped by both times before and it had just been sam, and when i knocked, he was the one who asked who i was, so i thought i would have no luck. but he opened the door and i came in and john was there and not only that but a good chunk of the oljers, including lisa frank. lisa frank, i nearly pissed myself. but yeah, i asked for the book, and part of me was going to just ignore the situation and pretend like it was just me and john and sam in the room, and i would get out of there as soon as possible. but then i realized how ridiculous and wonderful the situation was, so dammit i said hello to lisa frank and we had a conversation and i am proud of me. i wasn't even really all that scared. just a little. just enough.

so yeah, i came back to jennifer's room and told michael what had happened and i jumped around the room awhile and thought about how movie my life is, envisioned camera angles for that (which would be the closing scene... or maybe this would bet the closing scene), and then james came by. we cuddled for awhile, and i read her "tweetie sweet pea" by francesca lia block, and it was way too cozy, especially since she had to pack and it made it hard for her to get out of bed. she packed and i smiled at her. and fought off sleep until she got into bed with me.

i met her dad and stepmom this morning, and i like them. i was pretty shy, but i tried to be helpful and we hugged when they left. we still aren't sure what exactly they know is going on. and now i should work on my paper so that i can be all ready when we go out to eat tonight.

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