*aesthetically pleasing, in other words, fly. 2001-07-25 11:01 p.m.*

not much going on. all i do is look in the mirror and say, "damn girl, i want to take you home," and watch lots of television, and avoid reading isp books, and play freecell while listening to the best mix tape in the history of the world. really, not a bad way to live (i mean, it's rather self-indulgent, but not as miserable as i was afraid i'd be), but then again it is only day one.

oh, but i got to dance around naked, so that was fun. there was this one song that came on a few minutes ago, and i really wanted to go out in the living room and dance naked to it, but we only have lace curtains, which work well when it's day time, but not so much at night, so i held back, and danced in the one little bit of my room that isn't bed. though, maybe it would have been wiser to have put on clothes. but i'd just gotten out of the shower, yo! really the only problem with this tape is that it is too short. oh, but i so want to make my own mix tapes! dumb broken tape recorders!

and james called again tonight so that was nice. now i can look at the days left tell we see each other in better happier perspective than i could yesterday, but oh god, yesterday, i didn't think i could handle another 3 weeks without her arms and eyes and late night talks.

free cell is sucking out my soul!

so tomorrow, i go to vacation bible school training. i feel like i should have looked at the materials the pastor gave me weeks ago. but i haven't. i'm bad. bad bad. bad bad bad.

i don't know.

oh! i watched buffy tonight. which makes me happy, because i never got to over the semester because i had a class at the same time, and i haven't all summer except for the week i was visiting rachel, because mom goes to bed so much before it's on, and i don't want to bother her with the tv. i only started watching it in england, but it makes me think of so many people and things. of course buttercup and lamianosv, and oh it made me get all warm and fuzzy about the concept of seeing buttercup while i was in england. and it makes me think of clare in england, too, 'cause we watched it a few times together. it's syndicated there, and was on 3 times a week. like once tuesday (1-2 year old episodes) and 2ce on friday nights (high school episodes). very exciting. and willow and tara make me think of that night right before we got together, when james did the select smart buffy character selector, and got dawn like i did, and then got all drustrated like i did when she realized that that wasn't willow's gf, but instead buffy's sister. and i got all excited, 'cause it gave me hope. 'cause i'm such a chicken dork.

oh those crush days were fun.

but this is funner.

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