*i feel shitty, oh so shitty, it ain't pretty how shitty i feel! 2001-11-29 1:18 p.m.*

i missed buddhism again. i am the queen of the slackers. but i still felt shitty. i still feel shitty. why is it that i am only wracked with guilt about missing classes when i'm actually ill?

i just finished watching aladdin, and now i get to watch a little princess. i'm seeing all kinds of exciting things to talk about in my paper, but i'm wondering if i can find any kind of cohesive thesis. at least i finally found a way to connect the three movies together. if the paper is on "western ideas of 'orientals' represented in film," then these movies work really well. mickey rooney in breakfast at tiffany's is a white irishman made up to look asian-- so the character is very much constructed. and i mean, all the characters in aladdin are drawn. and then the images i'm planning on looking at in a little princess are her ideas of what india is like, so that's deliberately shown as a construct... my big issue is that i feel like all the paper is going to say is, "films say the exact things that the books we're reading say we believe about 'orientals," and that doesn't seem that meaty (good ol' michalson and his terminology that sticks in my head when i'm desparately searching for a vegetarian metaphor).

i just cleaned the kitchen and put all the dishes in the dishwasher and wiped down the counters and stuff. i'm really wishing i'd gone to the grocery store yesterday when i had the chance, especially since i'm not really feeling better today and so i don't know how i'll feel tomorrow. but if i'd gone i could have bought garbage bags, which is the main reason our kitchen is such a mess right now, i think. and then tomorrow the plan was to go to the grocery store before i did my presentation for class, and it just hit me that i probably should return the videos then, except if i return the videos then, i can't use them for my paper. rar is me. and my sinuses need to stop being bitchy.

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