*"kids don't like eating at school. but if they have a remains of the day lunchbox, they're a lot happier. 2002-03-03 3:43 p.m.*

i got kind of sick last night. i woke up sometime a little after sunrise (i got sucked into a computer game and didn't even get to bed till 5:30), and had to run to the bathroom. there was no puking, but i thought i was going to. so frustrating really, considering the fact that i had been more or less sober for at least 3 hours before i even went to bed.

michael came by this afternoon with my lunchbox. she had no recollection of last night so i told her some stories about things she did and things she said, and it was pretty funny seeing how shocked she was at her behavior. apparently, though, after jennifer connelly drove the 2 of us home last night, michael walked back to campus so that she could get her car and drive home. she was parked by the four winds and was over there when she saw a cop who asked her if she was going to drive home and when she said she was sober, the cop took her home, so she got two rides home last night. silly girl.

i felt fine when i really did wake up this morning, but i've been a little slow and kind of stupid all day. my brian is just not up to the speed i'd like it to be really. but showering felt supergood, and i just lounged around naked for a long time this morning. i took a nap with my glasses in one hand and the phone in the other and when i woke up the phone wasn't in my hand, but my kitten had her paws wrapped around it which i thought was supercute.

so yes, the new, well, not so new, recently recurring i guess, discontent in my life is that i want someone to have a crush on me, dammit. i wish i could be the crushee sometime instead of always the crusher (that makes me sound pretty violent, heh.) i do though. i want to be all mysterious and interesting and crushable, and of course it would be nice to be hot. but i'm about as mysterious and hot as the guy who had a crush on corky. i'm endearing and fun and cute and all those things, which i mean, is better than being none of those things, but it's kind of dissatisfying. la la la, i am a bobo tard. (addendum, 6:06 pm: i just added notes because i can't handle bravenet being down.)

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